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Hello, you can call me Cult, I go by any pronouns.

The theme of this blog atm is weirdcore/liminal space, as I adore both aesthetics.

This is my mental health tracking blog.

۶ৎ To start out with, I suffer from paranoia and delusions, as well as intense anxiety, and mild depression. None are very fun to deal with as you can imagine.

I’ve delt with mental health issues my whole life, it just been in the last… 10 years or so, that Its gotten to the point where these things are affecting my life to the point I notice.

In high school I noticed don’t get me wrong, but I was able to mediate a bit more (or maybe i just was better at living in a constantly bad state who knows). But as of late its gotten to the point where I miss work because I can’t even leave the house (I am very lucky to have an understanding boss.) And Honestly my relationships are suffering.

۶ৎ Common delusions I have:
– Being watched
– Being Followed
– Gang Stalking
– I’m not “real”

I also sometimes have more perma delusions of being a S***walker, or extreme parasocial relationships with celebrities, though in the grand scheme of things, that one is less harmful then my others.

My therapist (yes I have one) says its good i’m aware these are delusions but honestly sometimes I can lose that bit of awareness, and really be sucked into it when I’m having full blown episodes.

۶ৎ What I’m gonna be doing on this blog: – Sem-Daily logs (I won’t hold myself to that, but I have a bad memory and I think somewhere to log this, would be nice) – Talking about my progress, fallbacks. – Sometimes in general just talking about work. – I’ll take photos when I go out since I wanna get out of the house more, alone, cause the only time i get out when not going to work is with a friend. – Talking about my coping methods.